No one's gonna love you more than I do
And anything to make you smile
It is my better side of you to admire"
-Band of Horses
There was a time in my late 20's when I looked at my friends turned parents and I felt sorry for the plunge they had taken into this phase. They were missing out on everything. Nothing was easy for them anymore. They couldn't just pick up and catch a spontaneous movie or hit the road to Bloomington on a perfect fall day. Everything seemed so difficult and they seemed so confined and restricted. I didn't understand why they chose to make this sacrifice so early in life.
And then one beautiful March morning I became one of them.
There was a time in the recent past when I looked at my friends without kids and I felt sorry for them. They haven't yet experienced love from a place so deep it hurts. They haven't known the kind of protective blanket that falls over you, the feeling that you would sacrifice your life if anyone ever tried to hurt your kid. They don't understand that no matter how many times sleep is interrupted, there is a quiet beauty that falls over you at night.
And although you can't just hop in the car and catch a movie, there is an incredible feeling of being needed, that when these small eyes look up at you, they simply could not survive in this world without you. And when these tiny fingers grasp yours, they just can't make it without your hand to guide them. And when that toothless grin melts your heart, there isn't a feeling like it. That you and the person you love created this little life that simply cannot survive without you. And today, I cannot help but hope all of my friends are blessed with this gift. It's a game changer.
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